Life and Miracle

Hi there


Its 2pm in the afternoon here in Malaysia but i feel so cold, my flu is getting worst than i expected and i have to wait for my new washing machine to arrive instead of going out with my best friends, lousy me yep. But, i'm grateful that my parents bought a new washing machine so that we don't have to go to 'dobi' anymore and my mum won't come back home early, rushing and go to the dobi because i know and i understand that she have a lot of work to do at her office.


So, maybe you all didn't know why i created a blog. Well, actually, i have to be honest with you guys that i think Blogger is my best friend. Well, i know that i have my real best friends and i have Tumblr, so probably Blogger is my fifth or sixth best friend, i don't know.


I used to have this feeling that "ok i can't wrote down anything," "people will start bashing me if i wrote down something stupid" yes, i used to have that feeling inside me. But, not anymore. I'm so grateful to God that i've changed a lot. I'm starting to understand what's going on around me, i'm starting to be grateful of what i am, what kind of body i'm having right now. Honestly you guys, i used to hate my body and i kept on saying that i'm fat, (which i am), but not anymore. I don't care if i'm fat because as far as i know, i can lose weight.


I have these chubby hands that keep on disturbing me and i used to complained to my parents, my best friends and Aideel. So, the thing is right now that i'm grateful to have what i have right now, today. And, i know, living in this world is not permanently, we all are gonna end up dead anyway.

So, before i leave this world tomorrow, the day after that or sooner, i wanna do something that i love. I wanna enjoy inch and every second what life is. Go to Beijing is a dream come true. I'm starting to feel that i'm up in the air, flying like birds, and i feel like watching the clouds beside me is something miracle.


I'm grateful because i woke up everyday seeing my mum, dad and my little brother. I'm happy because i still have them. I used to asked my mum "mummy, am i beautiful?"and she answered "you're my daughter, of course you are one beautiful girl" and i felt so touched when she said that to me. Because, when people around you or your friends said that you're ugly, you're always have this one person that keep on saying that "you are beautiful" and we all know that words are from your parents.


I fight a lot with my little bro and we ended up feeling amazing and act like nothing happen. Why am i writing these? We used to have this big fight with your friends and we ended up not talking to one another. Why? I know, because i've been there before and i don't wanna care about it anymore but i kept on asking "why". Why can't you be nice and say sorry or act like nothing happen like you and your brother? I know that some of you out there might reading this, you wanna comment or something. Before you left a comment or say anything, i wanna say something, you have to be positive. I'm not mad at you. I love you guys so much and i care about you all.

So, let's share everything together and lets share love together
Thank you everyone for reading this. I love you all so much and i'm sorry if i hurt your feelings.
Love you all!
Have a nice day!